it was supposed to be a fun day today.

so why am i not happy?
i was with my friends was i not? with the friends i used to look forward to meeting every time we have a gathering.
but i had a feeling i was going to hate it.

you see, i've never really liked having these full gatherings, what more now we have only 7 members left. an uneven number, so one of us would most prolly get left out when paired.

and i guess, that's me.
i dont know who to go to anymore. everyone has their own partner to walk and talk with, while i feel so lost when with them. i dont know if i should stick to this partner, or another partner. everything feels so alien.
what more now that my friends, my ever so alem friends, are into HOT PANTS :S

no offence, i find this extremely IRONIC and...
funny in a sense that one of them used to tegur when another one of us is wearing
a skirt that may be too short.

but wtf? now they are into HOT PANTS?!

right now as im typing this, there is this smirk i cant wipe off my face.
and of all people, YOU?!
i cant help but laugh at the irony man. seriously.

who the fuck are you guys?

i swear i dont know you anymore.
i feel like backing away from this clique.
it is of no more difference if i was with, or without anyways.

and im aware i made it that way.

you know when i got home, i actually felt HAPPIER than going out?
sure, i may sound like a loner and all.
but after the horror i've seen from my friends today,
being at home was the best.

and im sorry, dear cousin, i ditched you for my friends.
im very sorry.
it's a mistake.

i have a fcuking flu
and cough
and just now, i developed a fever.

but did that stop you from ranting at me?
the moment i woke up,
you scolded me.

about what?
ABOUT TISSUE T.T

i dont know what you want me to do.
youre fcuking ALWAYS comparing
the way i treat my family and my friends.

ALWAYS.
sometimes,
GOT NO LINK
BUT YOU STILL ANYHOW LINK IT.


JUST WHAT THE FCUK IS WRONG WITH YOU?!

i never regretted having you as my father
that i can make sure of.
but sometimes, i swear i hate you
TO THE MAX.

you called me kurang ajar nye popan.
when all i did was to move away from you
SO AS TO SPARE MYSELF FROM LISTENING TO YOUR CRAP
and NOT ANSWER BACK TO YOU

and the best part?
i was just about to force myself to eat
and you hadta RUIN my fcuking appetite.

still can come to the kitchen
and say stupid things
like "Dont worry eh Nurul. You dont hafta see my face from now on.."

LET ME FCUKING EAT.
and SPARE ME YOUR FCUKING SHIT.

UGRH.

i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you






i dont want to take my medicine
i dont want to rest
i want to fcuking die.

so that he can get what he wants
when he said i dont hafta see his fcuking face.



bye.

sup, homies.

:D

well,
today i didnt go school.

BUT!
i had a perfectly good reason of which
i really hope you guys will believe me if i say..

i am down with cough and flu :(

REALLY!
some people just wont believe me when i tell them
i didnt go school because i was sick. GRRR.

my classmates saw how many times i had to run off
to the toilet to take tissue for
my nose... yang mcm tsunami
hahaha -__-

hmm, Creative Concepts yesterday was..
fun?
but it also made me carry a heavy bag to school
because we had to bring our own coloring materials.
like color pencils,
oil pastels,
crayons,
paint
blah blah.

so my bag was quite .. huge :(

oh and yesterday i slept at 1am
and i woke up at 4.20am like that
and couldnt go back to sleep.
because my nose was uber jammed
which meant i had to breath through my mouth the whole night

WHICH MEANS MY THROAT WAS UBER UBER DRYYYYY :(
sigh.
i couldnt swallow without feeling the coarsy-sandy-dry throat pain.

so continuing with yesterday
everything was (as usual) not going smoothly.
but it doesnt mean it wasnt fun ^^V

wen hao did everything wrongly.
HAHAHAHA.
paint wrong side lah,
that one lah
this one lah.
tsk tsk.

ridduan as USUAL
PEMALAS.
paint a freaking lightning and he got so proud of himself.
*roll eyes*

and sya,
carrots!
AHAHAHAHAHA.

iswandi,
stop it eh, with "pot"
"Must press here, then can say like how she said."

babi.

OH OH.
got one time,
i was walking beside sya,
together with the rest of the group.

and you all know right,
when i talk, sometimes my hand also move
T.T

so i swearrrr
i didnt know sya was carrying her box
filled with paper stars
skali my hand hit her box

and SHIUUUU!
(try pronouncing it)

and we all saw SHOOTING STARS.

O_O

all the stars dropped to the floor
and yeaaaaaaaaaaaaa
we had to embarrass ourselves to pick everything up -___-
HAHAHA.
so malu lah!
omg.

but besides that,
the whole day was fun. :D

but not today.
today i sick.
so no fun.
and both my parents not working today.

even more no fun -_-

sheesh.


**

and sumpah
yesterday
when i was rushing to get myself home to hug B1 and B2
things always hafta come up.
my brother asked me a favour that needed me to stop at tampines lah
then in 168,
i was sleeping peacefully
when i got woken up

by tht girl next to me
girl, i know you are tired and all
and you want to sleep in the bus

but honestly?
cant you keep your freaking head to yourself?!

this girl,
she kept LEANING onto me
nudging my hand
even when i try to move to the furthest left i could go
so i could have some shut eye and SLEEP
BECAUSE I WASNT FEELING OKAY

she kept leaning onto me
IRRITATING SIAAAAAA.

cb
then got many times
when she leaned on me
i pushed her back
HOPING she would wake up and adjust herself.
she DIDNT.

BODOHHHHH.

piss me off only.
pfft