Two blows in one night is not something I can handle

A,
Im sorry for not heeding your advices all this while. I really really should have listened to your naggings and your harsh words. All you wanted was for me to get a life and a fresh start. But i kept pushing your words aside and think that i can do this on my own.

I regret.

How could i be so naive and stupid? I believed every word. And look where it landed me now. Why am i always the one getting hurt? Im jealous, yes. But i really dont get that person. Really.

Im really sorry. I wont tell you anything about this. I will keep this to myself. Hopefully maybe with enough praying, i will literally burst with emotions and.. die
-_-'' anyway, i want to get it done this time. Whatever it is, i will heed your advice. Now i know who is good for me and who is not.

You are.
Im sorry. I thought that things would change this time. Guess not, huh?

heh.







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fuck you.
and fuck your attitude.

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this time NO MORE.