i woke my maid up because of the noises i made watching my korean drama.
hehehee


**

i dont know why.
but shit.
its happening again.
people say i think alot.

like, reallyyyyy think alot.
but its how i am.
i thought i needed assurance.

but even after getting it, i still dont feel right.
there's this HUUUUGE gap between us right now.
i tried to pop it, but it wont go away.

why?

i really dont want things to repeat itself.
but i dont know what to do anymore.
you probably think there is nothing wrong with us right now.
trust me, i want to feel the same way too.

but i CANNOT.
its not i dont want to, its I CANT.
it's still there.

even when i try talk to you
like we used to,
somehow, there is this awkward-ness.

like, i get the feeling we arent really listening to each other.
you may be beside me, but i feel you are so far away from me
something's gone.

and who knows when it may come back.




or if it will ever.




if this doesnt stop by next week, what happened last time...
imma hafta to do it again.

im sorry.